How Would You Know ?

Thursday, March 21, 2013 · Posted in ,


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How do you know he is the one ? How do I know the guy I choose is the one ?

You will know.

But not that soon.

Not as soon when he chased you even he was engaged (even when you actually know he admires you for years). It could be he was just trying to flirt around. But you say.. see ! he didn't back off even a bit. He arranged so many meetings just so you two can meet. He texted you a lot. Well, okay. But that still didn't mean anything.

Then by any reasons, he broke up with his fiancee. But still, you couldn't tell he is the one yet. Then you two are in a relationships. Being in a relationships is easy, he likes you, you like him, then you two have a date. You still couldn't tell he is the one.

But then his friends started to tell you that he never look as happy as this before. His friends started to tell you that for the first time he seems really in love. But hey, maybe it was just a honeymoon phase. So let's not to exaggerate about it. Because as time goes by, you two will face obstacles. There's no guarantee the butterflies in your tummy will keep alive (besides, you know you are not an easy person to be with).

Then you two dated for years. He was still as sweet as before. He texted you everyday and every time (even when he was busy watching his favorite match on TV), he said he loves you every day, and stuff like that. He told you about his dream to marry you and to spend his life with you. He wanted to be happy with you.

But then here comes the exciting (well, not really) part. His family disapproved you two by any reasons. Then you can clearly see how much he loves you. He couldn't sleep well, he couldn't smile, he couldn't think, he lost his spirit to work because you are the only reason he works that hard just so he can marry you. He was on his lowest point of life. He said how he understand why some people remain unmarried, because he started to think that way if he couldn't make it to be with you. He told you that he had been in too deep he wouldn't wanna anyone else but you.

Then you would lost your patience to wait for the situation to change. You wanted to leave but you can't. Because apparently, being deeply loved by someone really feels so good. He begged his family. He told them how special you are, how different you are with others he had ever known, how in love he is with you, how he could go insane if he loses you, how you become the reason of his happiness.

Then you will know.

You will know that he is the one. You will know as you see how ones can struggle that hard and that far for you. You know he is the one, because he makes you the one, as well.

That's how I know he is the one.
He proves it.

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Another Sad Chapter

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You know the moment when you think you're that close to the finish line, then they pulled you and you're heading nowhere again. Here goes another heart break.


Him : I woke up at 3 in the morning last night.
Me : And ?
Him : Tried to distract my thoughts with playing Cut The Rope. But I can't distract the thoughts. It's eating me.
Me : I know.
Him : You know. One of my brother in law decided to remain unmarried because he failed to get married with her ex. He quit his job and he decide to be a truck driver. And I understand why he did it now.
Me : Why ?
Him :What makes you hold on this long ?
Me : I don't know.
Him :Why you don't know ?
Me : I don't know. I'm not sure anymore. You ?
Him : I don't know about you. But I really feel that I can't love anyone else but you anymore. I tried to imagine myself without you, I tried to imagine I'm being with someone else. And I can't.
Me : Why ?
Him : Because I've loved you that much.
Me : :')
Him : It's just hard to imagine marrying someone else, living with someone else I don't love, and have to have sex with them. I can't even erect I bet.
Me : Dafuq ?
Him : Seriously. I just can't. I don't know about you. You might can leave me like that. You seemed too logical that makes you think like 'so his parents disapprove us, then hell with it. I'll marry someone else' You can do it. I can't.
Me : Hehe. :"> Why ?
Him : Do you believe the term that 'we've been in too deep ?'  
Me : -____- Of course.
Him : That's exactly what I'm feeling. I've been too deep. You're all that I want. I don't give a damn what people are talking about you because I really like you.
Me : Who's talking about me ?
Him : I mean like my parents. They might don't understand you. But I do. I understand you. I listened to The Woman I Love by Jason Mraz this morning and that's exactly what I feel. I love you the way you are. I don't even care when you wake up at 11 and yada yada.
Me : Hehe :">
Him : I know I might sound self-centered by putting you in such a hard situation. I tried to learn to let you go, but there's no chance I would wanna let you go. I don't want you to go. I want you, I want to be with you. I know it might takes time for us to finally we can be totally spend our time together, but eventually we will. It just a matter of time. 


And so I finally believe when they say ' being deeply loved by someone give you strength', and here I am to try again.

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Vanilla Twilight

Monday, January 7, 2013 · Posted in ,

 


Olla !
Just went back from Kuala Lumpur few days ago.
Well, this is my 6th times there so what makes it more exciting this time was because I went there with my BF. *blushes*

It's just cute remembering how I plan to live there few years ago but then I canceled it (because of him) and managed to had a holiday together with him. :3

Well, my last trip was fun. Selama ini tiep liburan semuanya terorganisir dengan baik. I never used public transportation, selalu make van atau taksi dan ga pernah bener-bener tau jalan karena taunya cuma naik taksi trus sampe. And that was not really my kind of holiday. I always want a trip di mana bawa duit cuma dikit, trus nyari jalan sampe nyasar. Well yeah, sounds weird but it just feels more fun to me. :)) So this time I quite made it. Refused to took taxi or van and insisted to use bus or public transportation. Yeah, sedikit banyak mirip seperti apa yang dipengenin lah walaupun belum survival-survival amat liburannya. But I'm still really waiting towards a trip where I can totally go backpacking everywhere. :))


 
 
Oh, btw I picked Sky Express Hotel this time. It's a new built hotel and the room was awesome. It has 7 Eleven next to the hotel so we can sneaked out at 2 A.M to had Noodles. :3




My new year eve was sweet. Muka dan kepala abis disembur-sembur. Baju dan sepatu kena noda pink bekas semprotan yang nempel ga mau ilang ( T_T ), but it was worth it to have a peck on the cheek from your loved ones greeting you happy new year. Such a sweet way to celebrate new year. :p



I got this keychain from him, anyway. Pretty cute to make me feel like a 13 y/o. :))




And lastly, dear you, I might have quite bugged you last year, but I really promise I'll continue it again this year. :))) Anyways, happy new year and have a fun-filled year ahead, people.  <3 br="br">

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The Happenings of Shit

Sunday, November 25, 2012 · Posted in ,


No matter what challenges might carry us apart. We'll always find the way back to each other.

We've been through a couple of tough weeks lately, I don't know. Shit just happened and it felt like you both fallen out of love. The older you grow, the more you realized relationships are not easy. There are many things that could harm your relationships if you both not really taking good care enough of it. Yeah, some would think we both have taken good care enough of our relationships. We did. But..still. As i said, shit happened most of times and sometimes there is nothing you can do but watching things start to fall apart.

But then again, it's a bless to have someone that always want to fix anything no matter how wrecked it is. Lucky are not those who have someone that promises he won't hurt you. But lucky are those who have ones that always fix everything because he wants you around.

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I Cheated On You But I Don't Want People Know That I'm A Bastard

Saturday, November 3, 2012 · Posted in ,

Me : See what I told you. Ujung-ujungnya ketahuan kan si Anu manipulasiin ngepublish tanggal jadian biar ga ketahuan cheating. Just like you. Foto-foto ga boleh di-publish dulu sampe jangka waktu tertentu biar ga ketahuan. :p

Him : But I've told you I have reason why it has to be manipulated.

Me : Tell me about it. I wanna see if it's valid enough. :))

Him : Kan mereka ceritanya cuma taunya baru putus, ga enak aja sama keluarganya. They were nice to me. Menghargai keluarganya aja sih.

Me : Kalau menghargai keluarganya, trus kenapa nyelingkuhin anaknya ? :b

Him : *long pause* Soalnya mikir pada akhirnya kan hidupnya bukan sama keluarganya. Sama anaknya ujung-ujungnya.

Me : Trus pas nyelingkuhin anaknya kenapa ga berasa ga enak sama keluarganya ? Letak menghargai keluarganya pas lagi cheating itu dimana ? :b

Him : Ya ga enak emang. Tapi kan pengen mencari kebahagiaan sendiri. Berhenti pelan-pelan lebih enak ketimbang ngerem mendadak kan.

Me : You didn't answer my question. Bagian mananya yang menghargai keluarganya if you cheated on their daughter ?

Him : Ya Desri mencegah kita make foto yang ada cincinnya segala macem itu.

Me : It still sounds invalid to me. Ga enaknya ke mereka kok telat. Udah nyelingkuhin anaknya, trus pas putus baru mencoba mencegah hal-hal yang bisa membuat mereka tau kalau anaknya pernah diselingkuhin. Pas lagi selingkuh, perasaan ga enaknya kemana ? :p

Him : I was just trying to find my own happiness, what's wrong with it ?

Me : I'm not talking about right and wrong. I am discussing about your reason that sounds quite absurd to me. Alasannya agak lucu aja gitu didenger. Do you know what have you done actually ?

Him : Yeah

Me : We had lunch. We watched movie. We went around the town. Why didn't you think what if they know that you cheated on their daughter ? Trus dimana letak ngehargai keluarganya as you said ? Why don't you just say you don't want people to know you're a bastard because you cheated on your fiancee ?

Him : *loooooooooong pause*

Me : Come on. It's not fair you know. :)) You blamed her when you cheated on her. Now you made stories tentang menjaga perasaan mereka. You are just trying to find the perfect justification for yourself you know. You make it biar keliatan kaya what you did is acceptable. And you make it seems like you did no wrong.

Him : *silence*

Me : What ?

Him : You amazed me.

Me : For ?

Him : The way you think.

Me : It might feels like I'm heartless, tapi kalo emang ga pengen nyakitin perasaan orangtuanya, mestinya dari awal, bukannya udah nyelingkuhin anaknya trus anaknya galau berbulan-bulan trus baru ngomong mikirin perasaan orang tuanya. Perasaan ga enaknya telat amat datengnya. Lagian kalau mau make alesan ga enak sama orang tuanya, aneh aja tetep. Kalau misalnya ceritanya Desri berdua pacaran baek2 trus Poe deketin Desri misalnya, trus Desri tolak pake alesan ga enak sama keluarganya, itu masih masuk akal. Ini Desri yang mulai duluan, desri yang ngedeketin duluan, trus nyelingkuhin anak orang duluan, kok pake ngemeng ga enak sama keluarganya. Logikanya dimana ? Just admit it. You just don't want people to know you're the bad guy.

Him : Yeah. I was just a bastard. My argument is just never valid for people like you.

Me : Gemes abisan. Brengsek ya udah brengsek aja. Kalo ngga ya ga usah sekalian. Ngebrengsek kok nanggung bener. Ribet idup lo.

Him : You know what. I really adore you.

Me : Oh.. You should. :)))


Gue gemes aja sih intinya ngeliat orang udah selingkuh trus sok-sokan mikirin perasaan orang laen. Dengan cheating aja udah egois dan ga mikirin perasaan orang laen. Kok ya ngemeng ga enak sama si ani dan anu, like it makes you look any less sinner. Pffft.


PS: Iya, gue rese sama pacar sendiri emang. :))

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